The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
I am in the process of welcoming back my brokenness.
The brokenness that once made me feel whole. The brokenness that comforted me like a hot shower on a cold and rainy afternoon. I am welcoming the brokenness, like many others that once suffocated me as I fought to appear whole but overcame me in my game of pretend. The brokenness that held me down, firm hands gripping my shoulders pushing my head under the water choking for air, submerged in my own doubt and failure. This brokenness; the same brokenness that invited in depression and anxiety, panic, paranoia, jealousy, anger, hurt, rebellion; this brokenness allowed me to come up from the ashes like a phoenix rising from the smoke of defeat.
The brokenness reminded me of just how whole I really am. Because within my brokenness is the blood that Jesus shed on Calvary, the blood that has washed away all of my sins, the blood that tore that veil, the blood that allowed a true relationship between myself and God. This bloodshed because of my brokenness, humanity’s brokenness now dwells within my own and makes me whole.
If I were to walk away from my brokenness with the idea that my healing, my wholeness was found by any act of my doing, my brokenness would have been for nothing. Because of this newly quilted spirit with patches of His blood and my brokenness, I might be whole.
Knit together, formed.
He knew my brokenness before I knew myself. He knew my battles and my struggle, He knew we would be in pieces, He knew that it would take delicate work to put us back together. So it is because of His craftsmanship, I may acknowledge the broken pieces that only He knew how to repair.
I now sit back with my brokenness, an old friend, who no longer resides within me, but just close enough to remind me of why I am whole.
I pray that if this has found you in the midst of your broken seasons you learn to welcome it, in reckless abandon, for the Lord dwells within our brokenness and makes us whole.
And for those walking in the blessed assurance of their wholeness, that you would never forget your brokenness and cherish those refining moments from when God has brought you back.
To God be the glory in everything all the time; in your wholeness and brokenness alike.
“I sought the Lord, and he answered me; he delivered me from all my fears. Those who look to him are radiant; their faces are never covered with shame. This poor man called, and the Lord heard him; he saved him out of all his troubles. The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear him, and he delivers them. Taste and see that the Lord is good; blessed is the one who takes refuge in him. Fear the Lord, you his holy people, for those who fear him lack nothing. The lions may grow weak and hungry, but those who seek the Lord lack no good thing. Come, my children, listen to me; I will teach you the fear of the Lord. Whoever of you loves life and desires to see many good days, keep your tongue from evil and your lips from telling lies. Turn from evil and do good; seek peace and pursue it. The eyes of the Lord are on the righteous, and his ears are attentive to their cry; but the face of the Lord is against those who do evil, to blot out their name from the earth. The righteous cry out, and the Lord hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles. The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit. The righteous person may have many troubles, but the Lord delivers him from them all; he protects all his bones, not one of them will be broken. Evil will slay the wicked; the foes of the righteous will be condemned. The Lord will rescue his servants; no one who takes refuge in him will be condemned.”
Psalms 34:4-22 NIV
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.
Love,
Katelyn and The Things She Learned
Katelyn and the Things She Learned 